AWOL

OUR.LOVE.WILL.NOT.DIE.
Please Let It Be Known.

30 Days Later..

i could honestly say this is one of the craziest months i can remember. I had so many up's and down. i lost myself for a bit. so i had to recollect my other half. but now i am confused again.


i am in the process of losing my grandma. i guess you never notice how much you seriously love something till it's gone. just to wake up and hear that her heart is still beating makes me happy. i almost lost a close friends to drugs and alcohol. she almost lost herself. i been drinking too much && thinking to little. its been rough. there have been days i felt alive and there have been days i felt half past dead. some friendships grew, some fell, and others evolved.
what we did changes everything...

sometimes i wish i knew all the answers.
sometimes i wish i didn't know anything
sometimes i wish i didn't know how to love
sometimes i wish i didn't know how to hate.
but its the beauty in the curiosity, actions, thoughts && knowledge
that sparks the laughs and tears.
and that how you know your alive.