Purging.

"time goes by so fast in a blink of an eye so make sure you never close your eyes."

so here i sit a brisk night in August and all i can really do is think. I can't hear anything else but the keyboard and my brain burning thoughts and memories. It's too late to start a commotion and the world on the east side has been sleeping for hours.

i don't even know where to start the summer came went. everything changed; my friends and my Saturday nights. It's sad to say i don't really associate much with the same friends as i did four months ago, but your whole life is changing with every choice we make. i feel as if my life is a line grid. there are constants and highs and lows. i guess i hit the constant but i know it won't stay for long.

i saw Goldfinger, & Less Than Jake on the 26 in New York. i cried to LTJ play "Look What Happened it's a golden feeling when you hear a song that captures so many memories be played live in your face. you can't do anything but let the tears flows and sing along; as if no one is listening.

June 28 was my birthday and it blew. my best friends lied to me, and my "sister" let me down. it was then i noticed that im done with peoples bullshit im sick of these fake friends who tell me they love & miss me so much, but can't give me the time of day. i notice that im taken advantage of alot, and really respected as much as i thought. shame on me. i have a good eye for who is worth my time, but there are those who slip bye.

i loosing friends that don't matter and im losing some that mean the world. i guess im too apathetic to care. i miss Ricky a lot. im not sure what happened to us, but we are only held together by seams and they aren't even that dependent. i try so hard but he doesn't give me the time of day. all i have are amazing memories of an amazing person.

i stopped smoking pot, that's what helped me see people for what in common we have. there was a point that i had no friends, i had to start from step A. but it made me realize that all my friends do is smoke pot, and i don't want to be another helpless case.

721 kinderkamack.
where some of the best people reside. home is not where you live it's where people understand you. i spend some good people had great times made amazing memories. i don't want it to stop.

so much hap pend in such little time
not enough hap pend in such little time
i take it for what it's worth because this is living this is youth this is my life. i live it fast and i live it hard. i don't want it any other way. summer is my favorite season, but this one was so bittersweet. it still keeps to belive that change the season, change everything.