Survivor.

Last night i was lying in bed for at least an hour.
Thinking...
& personally I think that is the worst thing I can do. When I think I get way into thought about everything. I loose myself in my mind. Everything around me fades to black and i fall into a world all my own. As i laied in my bed and staired at the shadows from outside i thought about my life. How I love everything i have. How I miss everything i lost. I lost a few people along the way & misplaced a few personal prized possessions. But do toy remember when life was simple.
When all you knew was love and you were never bored. Dislike was never a feeling but more like something you saw on T.V. Growing up you learn who is worth your time & attention for a long period of time & who is worth it for that split second in life.

I was thinking about everything i have. The good, the bad and the ugly. I think about my life a lot to be honest. I cherish it. Life beautiful obstacle that i need to finish. I was never asked to be born and i wasn't asked tho live this life. If it was up to me i would be in Hollywood. But you need to make the best with what you have. I plan on leaving this world the same way i came in. Without a care.

I have pushed to live this life that i call my own. All i will say is that in one point in time was a 30% Survival Chance. I won't get into in unless you ask me but believe me it was not easy. So the words once spoken by some great man are true.
You don't know what you have till its gone.
I almost lost the one thing i had once chance to make right.
Life. The ablility to breath/feel/think/love/cry/
I have a voice just as much as you do and i need it to be heard. I may be young but I'm sure as hell not stupid. I have lived through heartache and broken bones. Death and rebirths. I have witnesses failures and accomplishes by myself and dearly loved others.

People cut me short. I feel like they never think i can give a helpful hand or im just stupid and i never know what i'm talking about. Those are the people I don't associate with. I may not be book smart but throw me on the streets and ill find my way home. Everyone makes a difference. Everyone has an opinion don't discourage because of your ignorance. Listen and understand because you are just like them. We are all on the same path to hell.

We all need to find redemption in the world so we can make it to the perily white gates or whatever you believe in. Some people find it sooner/faster/easier then other. But those are the people who never live. The people who Bleed Cry & sweat are the ones worth living for & the ones you want to see achieve there dreams the most.

IF YOU DONT HAVE DREAMS YOU DON'T HAVE MUCH.