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Ah. well i gotta def give it to Mr. Erik Rhodes for introducing me to this splendid site. It's time for me to begin to express my thoughts/feeling/memories.

Lately i been feeling more dead then alive. Personally I blame it on the weather. I'm just not a winter wonderland kinda guy. I need summer I need the noises in my ears. I need more movement and laughter and longer days. I would love to see heat waves rise from the black concrete streets. The cold kills me. Physically and mentally. It hurts to breath and i hate when my body shakes uncontrollably from the 15 degree nights.

I try to keep myself occupied and motivated as much as possible. Its pretty tough but i have to admit I do a pretty damn good job. I been working on a movie. Personally it has good potential to be America's next hit. or at least in the gay community.

I'm not really big into the gay community. i find it steriotypical. Gay pride parade and Amanda Lepore and musicals are about as gay as i can go. I'm all one for gay rights and equality but i think it's harder to prove a point when your wearing short shorts and have a pink tang top on.

Funny about this subject actually. I was going to Rutgers for A party for my friend Dez birthday. I decided to drive with this girl who i really didn't know, but i felt bad because she was going all by herself. I have a soft heart. Anyway first time meeting her. Maryanne was her name and she was a lesbian. She wasn't pom pom cheerleader pretty girl but she wasn't plaid wearing Mohawk lesbian. She was average homosexual. I would say a lot like me. Not Noticeably gay but questionable. We had such a good talked. we talked about the similarities and differences of being lesbian Vs being gay.

The point that I'm trying to prove is that when you think of the gay community most people would think skinny white blond hair lisp speaking Barbara Streisand loving Addicted to Rent and America's Next Top Model gay. When in reality Gay men and women act differently and are more complex then that.

Well kids I would love to write for hours but I feel like there is something i should be doing.