Purging.

"time goes by so fast in a blink of an eye so make sure you never close your eyes."

so here i sit a brisk night in August and all i can really do is think. I can't hear anything else but the keyboard and my brain burning thoughts and memories. It's too late to start a commotion and the world on the east side has been sleeping for hours.

i don't even know where to start the summer came went. everything changed; my friends and my Saturday nights. It's sad to say i don't really associate much with the same friends as i did four months ago, but your whole life is changing with every choice we make. i feel as if my life is a line grid. there are constants and highs and lows. i guess i hit the constant but i know it won't stay for long.

i saw Goldfinger, & Less Than Jake on the 26 in New York. i cried to LTJ play "Look What Happened it's a golden feeling when you hear a song that captures so many memories be played live in your face. you can't do anything but let the tears flows and sing along; as if no one is listening.

June 28 was my birthday and it blew. my best friends lied to me, and my "sister" let me down. it was then i noticed that im done with peoples bullshit im sick of these fake friends who tell me they love & miss me so much, but can't give me the time of day. i notice that im taken advantage of alot, and really respected as much as i thought. shame on me. i have a good eye for who is worth my time, but there are those who slip bye.

i loosing friends that don't matter and im losing some that mean the world. i guess im too apathetic to care. i miss Ricky a lot. im not sure what happened to us, but we are only held together by seams and they aren't even that dependent. i try so hard but he doesn't give me the time of day. all i have are amazing memories of an amazing person.

i stopped smoking pot, that's what helped me see people for what in common we have. there was a point that i had no friends, i had to start from step A. but it made me realize that all my friends do is smoke pot, and i don't want to be another helpless case.

721 kinderkamack.
where some of the best people reside. home is not where you live it's where people understand you. i spend some good people had great times made amazing memories. i don't want it to stop.

so much hap pend in such little time
not enough hap pend in such little time
i take it for what it's worth because this is living this is youth this is my life. i live it fast and i live it hard. i don't want it any other way. summer is my favorite season, but this one was so bittersweet. it still keeps to belive that change the season, change everything.

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im going to say these words to make them
right cause we only have one more night.
tomorrow we leave with the skyline north and we will never looks back
we will live like a ghost and never leave any track.
the dreams of getting away are so close.
24 hours we have left to make it right so many laughs so many fights
its about who we were and we grew up to be
were young so it's time to show the world what were made of.
to break free of what holding us back gain strengths in what we lack.
ill board this plane and breath in my last breath of jersey air.
i can promise you im never comming back.

Nineteen.

I felt you in my life before I even thought to.
Felt the need to lay down beside you
And tell you
I feel you in my heart, and I don't even know you
And now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye
                     i was nineteen

One word

MISERABLE.

Changing Of Times.

Summer.
hurry the fuck up yo.

Cause' Every Inch Of Me Is Bruised.

I shouldn't feel like this.
This is wrong.
Why does it feel so right.
I can't look at you the same.
I like you, maybe im just like you?
I wish you would understand how much I love you.
Your the best i can never have.
It eats me away from the inside.
your a parasite with best intentions.
i try to keep healthy distance.
but your smile is contagious.
i just want to inhale you.

AWOL

OUR.LOVE.WILL.NOT.DIE.
Please Let It Be Known.